Open Heart

Peace can only flow through an open heart.  There can be no ego (self).  You must be your true Self, void of anger, ego and judgement.  Divinely connected.  To let go of the ego is to completely surrender to a greater power.  It is to let go of expectations and perceptions.  It is to believe that everything is being worked for your good.  It is to relinquish control and your will.  It is belief that your higher self is greater than your desires and pursuit of pleasure.  It is ceasing to believe that you are the best, or better than another.  It is to find and live your inner Truth.

Opening the heart also means becoming aware of the callings speaking to it.  Listening to the whispers and obeying the prompting of the Spirit.  So many times we are called into placed where the water is deep, we can see no shore, waves are crashing, life seems scary, we feel no security that the end result will land us just where we were destined to go, we feel uncomfortable in the journey, but we are promised that WE WILL BE DELIVERED SAFELY! 

I have said it before and I will say it again.  It is no coincidence that I landed in "Open Heart Yoga Teacher Training."  The Yogi in me says, Karma, it plays a role in our lives that we are going to receive as we give.  But the Christian in me says, yes, but Karma has a different name, G-O-D.  I have a sweet dear friend who had told me a while back that her son had provided a random act of kindness and had paid for the dinner of a family at a restaurant.  He had a calling on his heart, he obeyed, he blessed them in secret with no expectation of return.  Soon after, he won his money back on a scratch off ticket.  To this he replied to my dear friend, "Karma."  Her response?  "God."

Had this young man not had an open heart to the stirrings he was called to, a blessing never would have been poured out to that family.  But when we listen, obey and follow those stirrings, God calls us to a greater, more blessed life than we could ever dream. 

Sometimes it is hard for us, as logical beings, to fathom raisings our hands in praise, and lifting our hearts, placing our utmost faith in something we can not see.  But more than that, we are spiritual beings, seeking purpose, answers, reason, acceptance.  To be willing to open our hearts enough to something we can not tangibly prove is there, can be scary.

Having faith the size as small as a mustard seed, is all that the bible tells us in necessary to move mountains.

This open hearted faith has brought me more blessing than I ever thought possible.  It has called me out into raging storms.  It has blessed me with love and loss. 

Lately, so many things have been on my heart all at once.  Some things I have shared with everyone, some I have shared selectively, some I have shared not at all.

One of the big things that has been on my heart is homeschooling.  Everyone knows how much I love it, as well as the difficulties that came with our public school experience, the trials and heartaches.  Recently, through much prayer and discussion, we have decided that the kids will be going back to school in the fall. 

I am a little disheartened, I feel a sense of loss, but mostly I am trying to have an open heart to trust that God will bring us through and that even though it may be uncomfortable, He will deliver us to the other side, right where we are supposed to be, all for our greatest good.  Resting in the fact that He has a plan, and living according to His will and not my own, I know that every little thing is going to be alright.

God has taken me on such an incredible journey these last few months.  Between grief and Yoga training, God has really allowed me to heal in my own way, in my own time.  This journey has been such a blessing and for it I am so ever grateful.  For now, I am looking at this next step in the fall as an adventure and I am just waiting to see what God has in store for us, and me personally, in the coming months.

Perhaps I will land somewhere teaching, perhaps I will be teaching privately, perhaps I will be continuing my training, I don't know.  But I know that in the end, I will land safely just where I was always meant to be.

Open your heart, you just never know where it might lead.